Ok God so I get that real love is not emotion driven narrow minded euphoria. I get that its not the kind of thing that "comes and goes" I get that its also not something that always will feel good. You tell that real love has, in fact, no resemblance to those things. quite different actually. you say that real love is being patient with someone, when I'm stressed and out of energy. That its being kind to a person who does things that hurt you. Mostly you say that real love is looking out for someone even and especially at my own expense, and I don't think I'm going outside your word to add that you do that regardless of how they response to you. You say that I should know love by what I've seen you do for me. The defining thing that always makes the bible true to me is that even things that I don't think work, or don't feel they should work that way... when I do them your way, they work. I see that in the example of yourself. All of those things that you've said ARE love I see in you. Your very name is synonymous in definition with love as you've it. So I see it there.
But I still don't see that act of the play put into flesh aside from in you. I see other ideas of "love" work for other people, and that doesn't make sense. I just had a conversation with a guy a few minutes ago about how he's "putting out feelers" to the girl he likes, but always leaving a way out that he can back peddle to. God that seams cruel to me. (yeah I get to give him my opinion after church... that'll be fun) but the reality is that some day that's likely to work out for him. I've seen a thousand philosophies of love that aren't anything like yours work out. I'm not saying that I EVER (!) want that to be me. I have seen your definition work the best. I'm not abandoning it by any means. But in most other areas, when people try and twist, distort, fog or flat out try things different than you, it doesn't have the epic fail that usually follow things that are not your idea. I suppose I'm curious why you allow that in this of all areas to go on. you allow the lines of "success" to get blurred here where in other places and compartments of life you draw a distinct contrast. Is that your compassion? and if it is, than where's your compassion for those that adhere to your definition? The responsibility of adhering to your best idea is great, and so are its rewards I'm sure, but when does your compassion decide on our success. or even on our levity. this is when I want to see you, to have that kind of coffee chat with you. I know that you desire my trust, and you have it. I just wish for the same intimate understanding I get from you on other things.
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